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Skyler sat on his bed, knife clutched loosely in one hand as he tilted it this way and that, catching the dim lighting of the lit lamp on his bedside table. It was a small blade, smaller even than a steak knife, smooth and slightly curved with a bright orange handle. It was small enough that he could stash it under his bed or in a drawer without worrying about one of his siblings finding it and, in extension, finding out about his... bad habit.
He wasn't particularly feeling the urge to take that knife to his leg or wrist, and he tucked it in his nightstand drawer for safe keeping. It would provide comfort later, if he woke up to nightmares again.
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"I wish you would stop that.." Everan shook his head, not expecting Skyler to pay much attention to him. The older he got, the less acceptable it was to have 'imaginary' friends, even if the eldritch prince was very real. "It kills me to see you in such pain, with nothing I can do about it.."
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3/2/2017, 5:28 am
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Skyler glanced over at Everan, frowning a bit. He knew he was crazy--people didn't see things that weren't there and were considered sane--and he hoped that simply ignoring the problem meant that it would go away. But Everan had stuck with Skyler throughout his entire childhood and adolescence, and probably would be there until the day he died. He couldn't remember a single day where the--man? Ghost? Demon?--hadn't been there, hovering over his shoulder and throwing in his two cents.
Not that Skyler minded. Hallucination or not, the company, while not always acknowledged, was nice. Awkward sometimes, once puberty hit and Sky had discovered gay porn, but nice.
"I..." When was the last time Sky had even talked to the apparition? He had lost track of just how long he had been giving Everan the silent treatment. "It doesn't matter," he finally mumbled softly.
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"It does. You shouldn't be hurting yourself, SKyler, you should be talking to someone, getting help," Everan urged, reaching out as if to touch Skyler, before pulling back again and looking at the ground. "If I could disappear, I would, to help you. I know this is all my fault, just being here."
He'd thought about trying to leave plenty of times before, for Skyler's sake; but he just couldn't do it. The human didn't remember, but he did, and the prince couldn't leave his love alone to deal with all of this.
"...I've missed talking to you, Sky."
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Skyler felt a sharp pain of guilt as his stomach twisted. He should not be feeling this awful over a hallucination. "Its not your fault. It was never your fault," he said softly, resting his head on bent knees. "You helped, you know? It only started getting worse when..." When he had stopped talking to Everan altogether and lost the only outlet he had to keep from harming himself. "Anyway. It doesn't matter."
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"I'm sorry." Everan sighed, resting his hand over Skyler's back, just before it would phase through him. He used to be able to touch him, but that hadn't been for many years, and he was used to being completely useless now. "You'll get help soon, I know you will. Your family loves you."
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"Yeah, I know. Thanks, Evan," Skyler said softly, giving him a small, yet grateful, smile. "Sorry I haven't been talking recently. I just... I thought that maybe if I didn't, it would mean you would go away and that I wasn't crazy. But I am. Crazy, that is. And I really don't want you to leave."
Unbeknownst to him, his mother was outside his door, hearing the full conversation with a concerned frown on her face, only able to hear her son talking to himself.
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"I won't go anywhere, I promise." Everan smiled softly, feeling warmth in his chest when Skyler smiled at him. It had been so long since he'd seen it, and longer than that had it directed at him. "I'll stay by your side, as long as you'll have me there. I'll support you, no matter what."
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"That... That means a lot," Skyler admitted, rubbing his hands over his face and forcing out a laugh to try and break the weird tension that filled the air. "Alright, I should get to sleep. I'm going to start applying for jobs around town tomorrow and I don't want to look like a zombie to any potential bosses."
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"I'll make myself scarce so I don't distract you tomorrow." Everan promised, settling down in a chair to watch until Skyler was asleep. He always watched over his human, worried that even the slightest problem would take him away from him again.
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